Seeking Normal

All of my resolve to post more regularly went out the window when I returned to work after my surgery. It’s been an uphill struggle to get back to normal. Of course I’m not really back to normal, my energy levels are pretty much what they were but I’m still dealing with swelling and that pulling feeling in my abdomen. I have returned to working out at my exercise studio again. It feels really good to be back. I’ve missed my kettle bells. Other than that, life is pretty much status quo. Nothing ever really changes it’s like being a hamster on a wheel moving forward and not really getting anywhere. I’ve been looking back on a lot of things and it seems like by the time we figure out why we make the choices that we do it’s too late to do anything about them.  Perhaps this is the reason I compulsively knit, it’s the one part of my life where I actually have some control over the process and results.  

  I’ve made progress on quite a few of my knitting projects. I managed to finish a number of small items recently and a large Sontag shawl. It’s so cozy and warm. I have also been attempting to expand my skills by learning how to brioche knit. I’ve been doing an online class on Craftsy, it’s very detailed and the instructor explains things well. I finished a sample swatch but that’s about it. I really need to go through the rest of the course work because I want to make a brioche hat. I figure that will be a good starting point. My ultimate goal is to make the “Askews me“shawl from Stephen West. Of course we all need those instant gratification projects as well, lately mine has been making little ear bud cases. They are super cute and a great way to use up leftover bits of sock yarn.  

 As for spinning I’ve decided to reattempt chain plying. I have a couple of bobbins halfway full that I intend to jump in and make it work. I think it would probably be a good idea to check out some YouTube videos first. It’s been a long time since I’ve attempted doing this. I also spun 6 ounces of mohair and Coopworth blend with glitz. It’s a really beautiful magenta color, photos cannot do it justice. I’ve been perusing Ravelry to find the perfect project for it. It’s fingering weight, about 400 yards.  

 I will leave you with a photo of Rocco. He is another sticking point in my life. No progress there, he still not “my” dog. I don’t think he ever will be.  

Stay warm. 

Frogging back to zero

To say that there’s been a lot going on lately would be an understatement. I guess it all started back in July when I went to my gynecologist and she found some abnormal cells on my cervix. I went from being clear as of a procedure two years previous to a level 2 dysplasia. At that point she referred me to a specialist, I gynecological oncologist. I did not like the oncology aspect of it but the reality is that I had a precancerous condition that would require surgical intervention.  After a month of treatment the doctor performed a couple of procedures to prepare me for my hysterectomy. He went old school with the surgery, as a friend of mine said he was like a bear in a dumpster he didn’t want to miss anything. I was in the hospital for a total of five days. The first few days were the worst, I couldn’t even roll over without yelling out. It’s been a difficult recovery, I developed a hematoma that has caused me a great deal of swelling and pain. I have gone back to the doctor twice to have my incision opened and drained. This has caused me to have setbacks each time he’s performed this procedure. I am three weeks post surgery at this point and I’m hoping that if I stick to my activity orders that my recovery will start to go a little bit smoother. The bottom line is that I have avoided full-blown cancer.  Even with this in mind, I am not a good patient. I don’t enjoy the sick role, this is not who I am.

I would liken this experience to my recent knitting disaster. I started the “tattered” shawl only to end up frogging the entire thing back after I started binding  off. I realized halfway through the bind off that my stitch count was off and because of the drop stitches there was no going back. I restarted the project about a week after my surgery and kept picking away at it until I finished it two days ago. My plan was to do a “walking dead” themed shawl with “blood” stains randomly placed. I think I nailed it. 

 It would seem that the running themes of my life lately are mistakes, pain, starting over, and going to Plan B. Knitting is a metaphor for these experiences. 

I am now plucking away on the “vanilla” scarf from “jumper cables” on Ravelry. It’s a nice simple no-brainer of the pattern that is making a very small dent in my stash of sock yarn. 

 As for real life, Maude has been relying on her neighbors to keep her groceries stocked and bring her a hot meal every now and again.  She’s lucky to have them. Mr. Larj  has been working at his job for about four months. He hates the production aspect of it but he likes the drive and his afternoon shift, as do I. The only downside to this job is that they’ve been having him work a lot of 12 hour shifts, sometimes six days a week. The only positive to this is that with me being on a leave of absence the hours have come in handy. It is what it is, with the printing business doing the slow swirl he’s lucky to have work of any kind. 

My fall canning plans have also slowed down to a crawl. Obviously with the surgery I haven’t been able to do much. I braved going to the farm market today. My plan is to fill some jars some time this week. I don’t plan on doing as much canning this year as I did last year. Mr. Larj simply does not enjoy home canned goods as much as I do. I plan on doing a little more salsa, pickled beets, apple sauce and possibly some bread-and-butter pickles.

I’m hoping for life to return to normal, whatever that constitutes. Stay healthy. 

 My bodyguard. 

Summer Staycation

It’s been a bit of a strange summer, the weather has been all over the map it’s been either hard-core rain or hard-core heat especially this week. I had a bit of a staycation this last week, I was off for six days. My week started out with the wine and wool festival at sandhill crane vineyard. It was nice, despite the heat. I was able to catch up with a lot of my knitting friends that I haven’t seen for quite some time. Of course I did a little damage the fiber wise and wine wise.  

 I ended up with a nice little kit with a bottom whorl spindle with green skulls, a fantastic sugar skull bag from Chasing Acorns and some lovely green fiber along with a couple of hanks of roving. Of course I had to come home with some wine as well.  

I also had the chance to take in some music that was a bit of a change from my usual. I went to Meadowbrook to see Tony Bennett and Lady Gaga perform together. It was an amazing performance by both artists

My other mission this week was to do some deep cleaning around here that has been neglected for far too long. My main targets were Eric’s room and the basement. Hard to say which one was worse. It feels great to look around and know that it’s done.  

Another item on my agenda this week was to get Rocco to the vet for his yearly check up and a pedicure. Needless to say he wasn’t very happy about either one and per the vet techs he was horrible for his nail clipping. I need to find out a better method although I’m not sure what it would be. 

As for knitting, I can’t say that I’ve been doing very much of it. It’s just been too freaking hot here. Every day for the last two weeks it’s been 90° and above. Certainly too hot for spinning as well. I’ve picked away at the tattered shawl and I’m pretty close to the bind off.  

I had mentioned some health issues and my last blog post. I wish I could say that I have good news about the direction that they’re heading in but at this point I’m not really sure what the end result will be.  I’m going to have to do my homework and put trust in my doctors. Granted it could be much worse but it seems like a lot of things are going wrong at once.  Its a little overwhelming but I’ll get through it.  

Hopefully calmer seas ahead….

Knitting as I unravel

I’ve been working on a couple of projects lately. One of them is a long-term spinning project that I started a couple of years ago on a drop spindle. It’s turning into a lovely “Boneyard” shawl.  I wanted a simple pattern that wouldn’t overwhelm the subtle color changes of the yarn. I didn’t really have a plan when I started spinning so it’s all quite random but it’s coming together nicely. However it is very light weight somewhere between a cobweb and lace weight. I ended up using size 1 1/2 needles to achieve a proper fabric.  

 Given the tediousness of this project, I decided that I needed to start another less intense pattern that I’ve had in on the back burner for a while. I’ve had plans to make “tattered” and had the perfect yarn lined up. I have plans to ramp up the pattern and turn it into a “Waking Dead” shawl, complete with blood spatter, bloody handprints and if I can swing it some teeth.   

 So where on earth when I get the teeth? Well the answer to that question is… myself. As it turns out I’m going to have to have a dental extraction on August 10. I went to the dentist yesterday and he informed me that only 1 to 2% of people crack their teeth all the way down to the root. Of course I’m one of those very special people. My options are to either get a bridge or an implant. I don’t like the thought of a bridge so apparently I will be getting an implant sometime this year. It’s quite a drawn out process and pricey. In addition to my issues with my teeth, I have also been having issues with the reoccurrence  of the HPV virus requiring a biopsy and a recent flare of my interstitial cystitis after almost 25 years of remission. Needless to say this has me very stressed out which is not helping my health. I’ve been trying to control some of these issues with supplements,  I’ve  had a fair amount of success with getting the interstitial cystitis under control however I will just have to wait and see what goes on with the HPV. I think that that is the issue that I’m most upset about as I thought I had it all taken care of with the major procedure that I had done last year. It’s tiresome and I just wanted to be done and over with.

Also since my last post I had my minivacation at my knitting retreat. It was really nice this year very calm and relaxed. My sister Gus also came for a visit. My plans for Rock on the Range were canceled but I still kept my time off, I’m glad that I did so that way we could spend an entire week together.  

Gus will also be coming again in the fall, can’t wait to spend more time with her. I also have an 89th birthday party for Maude on Saturday. It’s hard to believe that she’s almost in to her 90’s. I hope everyone is having a great summer and most importantly staying healthy…. 



Allegedly, Spring is here although I can’t say that we’re feeling very much of it in these parts. The temperatures are still in the low 40’s to 30’s dipping down into the 20’s at night.  On the other hand, the low temperatures give me an excuse to continue working on knitted accessories. My two latest projects are a spindle spun cowl and a somewhat unplanned shawl.  I had a clear plan for the cowl as I was spinning up the wool, it has a really interesting nubby skinny look to it.  I worked it up on size 9 needles and it’s very light but warm.   


My next project was somewhat unplanned. I had leftover wool from  the “without moonlight” shawl that I knitted last month. I decided to make another “198 yards of heaven” shawl using size 10 1/2 needles. I figured that I would start knitting on it and see how far I would get with the yarn that I had. I got about three quarters of the way through the lace pattern and started running very low on yarn. It was time for Plan B, I spun a bobbin of wool to match the gauge, plied it and divided it into two parts.  One half of the wool was dyed to match the turquoise blue that I had been working with. The color was a shade darker but when it was knitted up it looked gradient. The other half of the wool I dyed a dark chocolate brown. I really love the way that turquoise and brown looks together. I think the end result turned out very nice and I love this pattern for its ease and beauty. 


Currently it’s blocking in the basement and should be ready to unpin tomorrow night. 

In other news, I took a few days off last week to try and regroup and relax. For the most part I was successful except for a few glitches. Of course one of these glitches was Maude, I was really hoping that she had turned over a new leaf and was softening up a bit in her old age. I was proven wrong when I went to do her shopping for her last week. She was very angry and childish. I ended up cutting my visit very short and left with my feathers ruffled. My other glitch was the fact that Mr. Larj informed me that his job will be ending in about two weeks. This of course means that any and all fun for the summer will be canceled and I will be stripped down to bare bones austerity for who knows how long. My dream of having a real vacation is slipping by me. It looks like the only way I’ll get to Europe is if I ship myself over there after I’m cremated. I managed a few moments of relaxation, taking Rocco out to Elizabeth park and lunch at the Fly Trap.  I guess it’ll have to do. 

Next on the project agenda is another “outlier” in a plum color and a secret spinning project. 

Surviving Hoth

Apparently this winter is going to drag on and on. I don’t believe that we have had more than a day above freezing since New Year’s.  We are all walking around this house with glazed faces, bored out of our minds. Thankfully I have my hobbies to keep me semi-sane. I have been working on some spinning and knitting projects. I decided to tackle in its entirety the “without moonlight” shawl from Caitlin Ffrench. Overall I’m very happy with the results and the pattern. I’ve never done a half circle shawl before and I believe I will most likely have to wear it with a pin in order for it to drape properly. I started by spinning and plying 3 1/2 bobbins of “Buster”. I then dyed it a turquoise blue on the stove top . The pattern was easy to follow and I had plenty of yardage left over.  

I would say the top picture is probably closest to the accurate color of the finished shawl. I also finished the “common bean” shawl also from Caitlin Ffrench.  

Again I was very happy with the pattern and the result. I’m really enjoying working with bulkier yarns as everything knits up quickly. 

I have also been working on upping my skills with my spindles. I’ve been playing around with my mini Turkish spindle and I feel like I finally have the hang of it. Of course that means I need a full-size Turkish spindle. I went on my spindle spinning group on Ravelry today and found a couple of links to some Etsy shops. I purchased one from Turtle Made that was made using a 3-D printer. I’m very intrigued with the idea of using a new technology as applied to an old-school skill. I am also still working on plying up the multiple singles from my free samples of roving from Knittopia a couple of years ago. It’s slow going in the and result should be… Interesting. This will either be a really good idea or a really bad idea. 

As for personal stuff, as I stated everyone in this household is going a little stir crazy. I somehow managed to get Mr. Larj out of the house twice this weekend. Our first event was a birthday party at a Cuban restaurant downtown. We had a great time hanging out with friends and the food was amazing. I desperately needed to see something green and growing so I decided to take Mr. Larj to the Belle Isle conservatory to take in the flora and fauna. We had a pleasant surprise in finding that the aquarium was open that day as well. Afterwords we checked out the Green Dot Stables restaurant. I liked it, Mr. Larj hated it. In my defense he did say he wanted to try something different. Their entire menu is a variety of sliders. I had two different fish sliders and the garlic and truffle fries. I thought it was good and would definitely go back again.

As for my work life, it is what it is and I’m trying to make the best of it. I really hate how the focus of healthcare has become more of a business model than a people first model. It seems like it’s all about the numbers and productivity.  I am still trying to find that balance between doing what I need to do for my patients and giving the powers that be what they expect out of me. I am making it work but it has definitely ramped up my stress level. Adding to that stress level is the fact that mr. Larj’s job is always in a precarious position. We never know from week to week what’s going to go on with his place of employment. Admittedly the printing field is not what it used to be but it seems that the people he works for are completely lacking in any kind of motivation to make the business work. It really irritates me when I see people that of been handed something and they just piss it away. Unfortunately that seems to be more the rule than the exception of when it comes to children taking over their parents business, although in this instance it seems that the parent is equally irresponsible and uninterested. 

I also got a really good shot of Detroit from Belle Isle looking out over the frozen Detroit River. Spring is just around the corner right?

Blogging Blocking

The bean is blocking! I always feel like I overstretch and over pin everything that I block but I know that once the pins come out it will pop back in a little bit. All in all I’m very pleased with how this project turned out. The happy surprise was the random stripy effect that came out when it was knitted.